Several years ago I was in a conversation with a friend of mine, and I was going through some troubles. I told him something along the lines of, “I just don’t feel right unless I’m struggling with something.” And I meant it. Sometimes it still applies, as another thing I have noticed with my drinking (and mostly these days it’s the binge drinking I do) is that when things are going bad, I don’t drink as much. Quandary sets in : should I let life be hell so I don’t drink as much, or let myself be completely happy with the way things are going. THAT is when I let down my guard.
“Things are fine! Let’s belly up and talk about how well everything is – Life is good!”, I say and think. I’m actually duping myself, and convince myself that I don’t have a drinking problem.
This little point comes to mind as I’m mulling over goals and what I would like to achieve from here until the end of my days. A trap I will need to be aware of. It may also be a reason why I am terrible at starting the goals I do set, and even being happy with myself and my situation. A curse, I tell ya.
Nonetheless, I have to try. Because it seems my body and mind are weaning themselves of my heavy drinking habits, it’s time to set some new goals to help bring back a healthy happiness to my being. They say in order to make something a habit, you need to do that something for 21 days straight. I’ll start simple and fairly easy to keep my hopes up. Add one good thing and take away one bad thing –
Goal One : Drink as much pure water as they I should each day (the good) and no more convenience store food (the bad – I commute an hour each way to work, so this happens frequently, it’s way too easy). Day one is good and done already!